Update
I’m sorry, but I have more good news to report! J This morning, I am not training for fear of overtraining and injuring myself, as opposed to not training due to being sore or injured, or weak or dizzy, or not waking up early enough, or just not feeling like it. It is 5:32AM as I type this, and I’ve decided to catch up on some paperwork (writing, recordkeeping, etc) instead of taking my one-mile run this AM. I worked out like a beast yesterday afternoon; among other things, I did 61 consecutive push-ups, a new high. I definitely over-did it a little on the leg press because I can feel it in the back and sides of my knees this morning. The feeling definitely says “running is not a good idea”, so I am listening to my body and taking full advantage of the morning off.
Overall, training is progressing nicely. Push-ups are on schedule; sit-ups are coming along (although I have not focused on them the way I need to just yet); and my running is improving – which is to say I am actually running now. My times are way removed from where I would like them to be in October when I re-take the Army physical fitness test, but I am making slow and steady improvement, and that is all I can ask. As long as I train hard and often, I am confident that the numbers will come along in time.
This confidence is brimming over into other areas of my life. While dialysis on the whole is still a scary endeavor, I now trust that every time I go that I will leave the center healthier and feeling better than when entered it. In addition, I feel much better once I get home and overnight. My demeanor is still very chipper and positive. My writing is finding a more steady pattern; my biggest concern recently is finding time to write! I actually even take an occasional trip outside for leisure purposes only instead of “having to do this” or “having to do that”. Everything seems to be coming back together slowly but surely. I am grateful and remain humble because I know that it can all be taken away from me again in a second; this makes me appreciate everything that much more.
More good news is on the way. I can feel it; now I just have to go out and do it!
